wanda nabila

You know where I’ve come from,
You know my story,
You know why I’m standing here…
Tonight,
Please don’t go,
Don’t be in a hurry,
I’m here to make it clear,
Make it right,

Well I know I’ve acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,
I’ve finally found that something
Worth reaching for,

I’m not here to say I’m sorry,
I’m not here to lie to you,
I’m here to say I’m ready,
That I’ve finally thought it through,
I’m not here to let you’re love go,
I’m not giving up oh no,
I’m here to win your heart and soul,
That’s my goal.

Please don’t go,
You know that I need you,
And can’t breath without you,
Live without you,
Be without you,
Well I know I’ve acted foolish,
But i promise you no more,

I’m not here to say I’m sorry,
I’m not here to lie to you,
I’m here to say I’m ready,
That I’ve finally thought it through,
I’m not here to let you’re love go,
I’m not giving up oh no,
I’m here to win your heart and soul,
That’s my goal.

Well i won’t stop believing,
That we will be leaving together,
So when I say i love you,
I mean it forever and ever,
ever and ever….

I’m not here to say I’m sorry,
I’m not here to say I’m sorry,
I’m not here to lie to you,
I’m here to say I’m ready,
That I’ve finally thought it through,
I’m not here to let you’re love go,
I’m not giving up oh no,
I’m here to win your heart and soul,
Yes I’m here to win your heart and soul,
Thats my goal….

"Never will I forget the days I spent with you."

even if it was mere seconds.or dread long hours under the hot sun.or when someone interrupted the peace we had.(ergh!damn.haas)inthe wee hours:  we talked on the phone.during your lunch breaks. during your home trips.the 1 minute "singing"…with your wink.

The closure have started.

I’m beginning to accept it.

I’ll let it go.

That chapter of my life I will close.

It won’t be forgotten, but will always remain with me.

I remembered you said this to me

"Hanya Tuhan yang mampu memisahkan kita. Dari Allah kita datang,kepada Allah kita kembali."

(One sms that I fondly remember; ‘For knowing me, you won 3 prizes- firstly you have an everlasting friendship with me, secondly lots of undyinglove from me,and last but not least  you have a free stay in my heart-you can go when you want, come when you need till my pulse cant be felt.From the great one we came, to the great one we shall return.) -16 JULY 2005 11:45PM, the night before you went away forever.*our 2nd year anniversary

mymy.almost every minute i’m thinking of you, MR CENTER-BACK

Woahh.I had a great time the other day.Even though, there was a spoiler.Having you by my side was more than enough.aah.hope to get to know you better.yeahh.insyallah amin.doa-KANkan"(winks)Thank you very much for the biscuit(sedap.haa) and your jacket(it kept me warm a littlethou’what matters is the thought anyway).Youre really so nice.mymy.I’m falling..but still grip on the ground.haas.really-I didnt regret coming you know.It’s been weeks that i really laugh.your smile made my day. ur style..my..(i’m just so glad that i know you)..I pray you find the right girl.The events of that day I could clearly remember.It keeps replaying through my mind. That was clearly unexpected..but yeahh it happened; the MNAS guy came and appeared right infront of our eyes.His reaction was strange,really.The rest of the details,you know I know.-just between us-hee”THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR the accompany and everything!That was really the HAPPIEST day in my life.

even if it is just going to be memory; I DONT mind.I’ll treasure.(it wont be dumped.)

p/s:the "TADI"thing you’ll know someday.

BUDDIESforeverr.I’ll stand by you.-i’ll go thru the times with you’

(I pray for your happiness. wellness. each day)

kebahagiaanmu adalah kebahagiaanku.

u dont question me a thing coz that’s the past.ayy.
hahaa~
i’ve changed?
nah just starting afresh.
coming back here..
was a choice.
not a FORCE.
i had my reasons.
i chose to go there.
told ya: dont question me why?
grades aint everything.
i took that path…
brother.im sorry if i disappointedYOU..
u probably wouldnt understandtoo.
i dontBOTHER explaining either.

i was veryHAPPY
when i sawyou LAUGH;
withthat SMILE it meltedaway everything
that SEASON is stillfaraway…
inside this wet and cold earth;
i was keep waiting for the plants toSPROUT.
eventhou’ today is anotherPAINFUL day..
eventhou’ i still carry thepain fromYESTERDAY;
if icanOPEN MYHEART that iwantto:BELIEVE IN
i canNEVER be born again.
BUT i can ALWAYS-CHANGE myself
let’s staytogether FOREVER

WANDA-nabila
i’llnever LOSE faith eventhou’ youregone.
i’ll continueSMILING…
thechapters OF MYLIFE;yet tobeenclosed.
there’smuch i want to tellyou.
but it’s okayy..

iwalked passtheROUTE,
thenisaw him..
ilooked downandAWAY.
lookedUP again.
heTURNEDaround.
heSMILED;))ohmy!
then thePASTcame flashingback again.
theexpressionchanged; HEwasnt HIM.
but anywaydarn:i enjoyedthemoment of seconds,
forall iCARE;
theHAPPIEST day ofmyLIFE.
though theTRUTH hehaveyetKNOWN.
it’skay.idontmindathing.

wandda-nabila.
whenialmost FORGEThowtosmile.
ilearnt to SMILEagainn.
itcos’ OFYOU.thanks buddy!

whitenessGLIMMER thru’
dawns bend through thepane
im almostFALLING again..
the thoughts areBACK..
it’shere toSTAY..
ohhmann.
theclosure have yetstarted.
whatthehell?
it’s far fromover..
this is just thebeginning..
i really wishtheEND.
urghh.

wandda.whenitAPPEARED out of nowhere.

imstillLOST inthefieldsof CONFUSION
theVICTIM againn.
LOST:sheer-elegances.
return myPRIDE.
ohhplease..
stand.shoot.even torntopieces.
dont lettheSICKNESSin.
dontHATE;
throwitUP.spititOUT.
even if you areDRAGGING..
walk on..

eflection of times
starting anew.
i FOUND him!still thinkingthough~
why does lovingyou seem so HARD’
is it the past?
cos’everytime i seeyou.iget thisFEELING from theancienttimes.
ifeelthe
SENSATIONrunning through my veins.i’mflying on an angel’s wings.ilovED
you since the day we met.butwhen you LEFTawhile,i just wept.i stillLOVE
you,even more than you can bet.oh’if only my love would be let..?i
think of the day wheniseeyourFACE.thinking of myself as an utter
disgrace.i cryinthenight&sobmytears.whereareyou when i am havingall
theseFEARS.
ooh’willyou bethe one to saveme?

pleasesay:the fear isabout to end.
andthisis just the beginning’

wandda.pleasedonleavemehanging’.ohhplease.